I don’t want to know about your Asian wife

Or your Asian friend or Japanese girlfriend or your study abroad in China.

Prefacing with: I do not want to hear about your shock. I don’t want to hear about your apologies. Express that to your white friends. I don’t want to hear about how you or your friends aren’t like this. I fucking guarantee you know someone like this.

I haven’t been able to wear this shirt out yet but what a perfect time to wear it in a photo. Two nights ago, I saw the breaking news roll in and very actively compartmentalized it until the next day. Tbh, I was numb and reaction-less. Should I be angry? Should I be sad? Should I be unsurprised?

I took a mental health day yesterday. I would be okay one moment and then read some stories from friends or the news and then burst out into tears. I had a really fucking BAD DAY but I didn’t go out on some murder spree.

I have written about being exoticized before, always received with mixed reactions. “It’s a positive stereotype! Take it as a compliment!”

“I’ve never been with an Asian before.”

“I’m trying to collect them all” as if I was some playing card.

“I love Japan, the women don’t talk back.”

“Where are you from? I studied…